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Welcome back to my blog. This line is some how I am influence by other and not actually important for me. I am the one responsible for myself. The time is seven thirteen. So I am human. I get manipulate and influence but welcoming is in culture but welcome to my blog is not mine. So for the shake unique and the originality from next blog I am not saying this please apologise me from next time.

The time is seven fifteen. My habit is simple. I wake up at eight to nine o clock. Why it is because if i don’t go before nine o clock in my dining I dont get food to eat and I know how hunger and food is important so that I always I mean from past fifteen approximately i am waking up. I am creating myself in that scenario that I cannot escape if I will also and the success rate is also satisfactory last time i remember I get up at eight fifty eight and I go running directly to dining for food. This is my waking habit. Its interesting huh but this is always not what this is and I have lots of time to express it. Presently I am focusing more to master it for that I have to practise it more daily.

Then after wake up i mean before wake up I have to complete seven to eight hour sleep. This is not true the number can be any but my sleep should be deep and relaxing so to ensure my sleep I usually sleep at one o clock the time may fluctuate and some days ups and down is acceptable like yesterday i am not with my routine. Now my time is seven twenty three and I have still time to act and time to blog.

After waking up from nine o clock to one o clock I personalize my time four hour.Or this can be simply explained in other way and other means I mean for this chart is good and I know the chart and the dashboard but I am not making this is my initial phase and I have to know myself well. The final result may be my own software or app or my own idea own page but for now learning is key and I am neither distracting nor tempting to any success or good representation. So this all about the column, data, chart dashboard I left it for future. For now the common thing is one day have twenty four hour in twenty four hour I have to sleep seven to eight and if six then i get one extra hour. Now twenty four minus six/.seven/eight sleep minus nine hour duty minus one hour transport to go and one hour transport to come minus other is my time to invest myself.. Now the good thing is that my duty location is permanent so my time is also good and I get plus hour from there also. So till now I am not finding actual routine I am lazy on it but one day i will make this routine no one day today I make this before starting another blog. So in my next blog my bed is tidy, my routine is fixed in paper and post in wall. My hygiene. and more about the timing. The time is seven thirty four and I still have time for blog and complete it.

Going back to time other I am managing later but the time of nine to one is fix. It is because of food. The food I am eating right now is from my company but from other name. So If I dont wake up till nine I lose my breakfast and If i dont go to dining before one o clock I lose my lunch so this two time are constant and sleep time and duty hour is constant. So my duty start from fifteen to midnight twelve. For fifteen duty I have to go for fourteen exactly if not then I miss the transport.and before one o clock I come to my room. At the end of my day I come to my room, wash my feet and I sleep and to fall sleep well I always make bed friendly to sleep so that when I come at night i can sleep as fast as I can to get bonus sleep and after I sleep I wake up by myself I left alarm habit but also some disturbance are there. During this I have to brush my teeth thrice a day.The first one is not fixed yet but the second one is in my first break and the last one is in my last break at duty. The first one is sometime I do before after and left .

The time is seven forty three today I am lazy because I eat yesterday from outside yesterday is salary day and my child born day so I get food from outside this is why when I have money it get its own way. And the other way is that I had eaten all the lunch at once yesterday so after hearing the news I am carving and i use to eat so do I now from full stomach I am lazy, sleep not well whatsoever all the happening have reason. Now the thing is During this period I am using less mobile the only time I am using my smartphone is from nine to one o clock. I dont take my mobile to duty. It is procedure not to take and I follow procedure and after coming from duty I cannot open phone it gets my sleep disturb and the early hour after I get up also I don’t use phone.The first hour I wake up give time to myself. For gratitude, I write in notebook whatever I can , sometime if i late I have to go direct to dining and after reaching there I eat food hot. So that i am eating healthy. But if I wake up late then I am not going to gym and if i go to gym after eating it is no beneficial so my gym routine also only pull up I finish it maximum in five minutes. I am learning, finding the importance so it is not always same when there is break I change so for me routine is most important and this routine following is from my self discipline. This is first important factor I realize in my life. now I am practising it upto most I can. So the time is seven fifty four now I have to get up exactly what i want to get up but the thing is that how loudly this roommate is talking to his phone also the light bulb but the thing is that till I am concentrating here no distraction. If distraction is distracting me then it is me who not focusing well.

Back to the topic I have to give my clothes to laundry and laundry have break time from eight thirty to nine o clock so my normal and good routine is wake up, wash face, give laundry and take laundry, gym then breakfast but before eight thirty I should be there in laundry and before nine i should be in dining for breakfast so for now brush and washroom I don’t where i put but now its eight one now lets start from eight fifteen I go to washroom and wash face then I go to laundry with dirty cloth if I have new cloth coming then I give the dirty one then I go to gym and do pull up then from the same way I go to dining and have break fast. now waiting to eight fifteen and my routine start. Once again repeating washroom, face wash, laundry , gym breakfast then after room notebook and pen then only phone. The first thing father and mother and then wife and kids and relatives and more then blogging start. Today before that I arrange the bed and wash my clothes too. Now I am good boy. Good planning lets see how I implement it. time tick tick eight o five. I feel thirsty but I do not have water to drink. Hehe good.

Now I need one tissue for going washroom make ready for it. Then come to room and pick up water bottle and spoon for lunch and uniform for laundry. ok thats good boy. Now what i miss is my shower time. It is before I wear uniform and when I wear before one o clock I have to be ready and rec lunch then either I can play pool or simply come back to room and do needful like taking to someone or watching learning new language any thing. Ok the what I left is washing my cloth and arranging my bag. my bag is transparency and I have merits of it It can visible so that when I return to camp security can see through. Ok now its almost eleven so its time to act. Thank you so much staying with me. Thank you eight eleven.

The time is eight fifty seven. I am in my own room the tissue story is simple and brief. In previous blog I express the blog about my habit where I used tissue in washroom. I am not happy with the tissue. This tissue has the issue. In general this tissue has no issue but also I am not happy with this tissue because this is theft. A serious theft. This tissue a single piece is all from my duty location and to bring any things and belonging not doesn’t belong to me including this tissue is theft. Yeah I am theft. I realize this is theft then what am I going to do. It is simple I don’t use tissue any more. I start from right now that I left this habit of using this tissue. And now tissue story ends no. This is just the beginning of the story. I am not bringing tissue is not end. The way I am using tissue in my work. I waste many tissue in my location and then I thought I can bring to my room. I am wrong. I am not taking my responsibility. I am the one taking care of my consumable in my location and I am the one misusing it. So from today I am not using or misusing the tissue in my location too. This is what my duty teaches me and I am not great ful towards it. How silly am i . And what actually I misuse the tissue in my location is that there is always cloth to use in my location but I use tissue to wipe the surface. This is how I am misusing it. The correct remedy is to wipe the bin with cloth and the specific designated one with the color code. This is my learning of today. Thief and stealing can be in any form. I am responsible for me myself for staying and remain far from this. I am the positive one and right now from here I should stay positive. This is my happiness and I am happy.

Thank you for staying with me. Please stay positive. Laugh when I can. Thank you.Nine twelve

The time is nine fourteen . Welcome to my blog 5.5 My gratitude to laundry sir and gym colleagues. This is my life. I am making mistakes and I am correcting it. This is my learning process and how I practise. Previous blog I am saying I don’t welcome and again I am welcoming. But also now I feel welcoming is necessary and it should be in my habit. The one what I forget during this moment and realize now is the AI I am using right now. I feel fear to AI and also I am not ease with AI but also I should appreciate the AI that I am using right now. The AI I am using is to read my blog. i usually don’t read my blog but I know one day I go through this. This is why I am continuously writing it. The writing I am writing should be implemented for me myself. This is why I am enthusiastic to write continuosly and learning continuously and everyone who can able to read, listen or feel it can learn from as me too. Now I am only focusing in expressing and reflecting myself.

Back to the topic of my gratitude to laundry sir and gym colleagues I am getting positive vibes from all of the people now I am meeting. Look the very first person I meet at laundry is my laundry sir. He is so humble and kind. I can learn many things from him and afterwards going to gym my gym colleagues motivates me well to continue and pull up more. They are so generous and kind. Thankyou stay positive and spread happiness. Thank you Now I feel so enthusiastic to write continuously each and every thing. I am not able to express all the things. All ok no problem I am learning and continuing this journey. I am doing great. Thank you me myself and the one who is feeling this. Thank you so much for everything. nine twentyseven

Yes the time is twelve fifty eight. I am ready for duty. Everything is good now. I receive my lunch from dining. I eat this lunch half for as a lunch after reaching my duty location and half as a dinner in my second break. I already arrange my bed. It is nice and tidy ready for sleep. And I have time of fifty minutes for blogging and that is exactly thirteen fifty I move from blogging for duty. It is me and this is me myself. The moment I do blogging I am not doing other work and in other work doing time I do not do blogging. Now I am enjoying blogging so I am continuously writing it. My thought process is clear and clear. I can think now in a clear way no clashes and noise. And yes i am there that my bed is so tidy that I feel sleepy and want to sleep and I can sleep also but I am not the one sleeping in room without going duty. I am not going to duty today also but I am going It is my habit. If I don’t go duty today tomorrow also I feel lazy. So I act. I know my sleep is not well. But sometime it is ok and that sometime is today the moment right now. Now yes I already ready with my uniform. My trouser, shirt, ID card and Jacket. In my pocket I have purse and in purse my company card and my country ID card, my home country license and pic of my wife and daughter and the atm card and the key of my locker. My bag pack is simple and transparency. This is the bag given to my company and I am proud of it whatsoever is it. The merit of this bag is transparency itself. Everything is visible and no need to open the bag during security check.

The other thing is that in my bed all the things are arranged and where that things gone. Before that for my uniform only my shocks and shoe is remaining shoe is outside with slipper. And shock is right now infront of me. Pop up notification are coming but I am in my own typing pace. During this I have not call to home. Neither I receive call . It is my responsible to call and ask but I am not doing this any way this is life what life is now where am I left before is where my all the things gone. Yes I clutter so many things that are not needed and used by me so I feel so light. During this journey now even I am not eagerly blogging also my thought process is positive and I can think positively. I clutter many things and many things now I feel lighter. Thank you this moment I still can breathe and enjoy my happiness well. Yesterday is my salary day and the money I receive I give food money. Now remaining money I am sending to home but I am not sending why am I not sending because I am not sending.

The other positive and good thing is I even clutter the books and all the materials I write not actually I throw it but I kept it aside. Right now I am not ready to read anymore and write the things but also I have pen with myself and if needed I write it anyway or I am using my brain to remember so that I am practising to use the brain too. This is life of mine and my journey. The time is thirteen eighteen.

Yesterday I get life lesson from one of my friend he add me ups and fuel up. I am blessed to have friend like him. It is me who is not listening to him before and now I am taking my responsible myself and learn from him and his word.

I have lots of curiosity with fear which I have to express and admit it. Right now many are replying congratulations in my post that i post of my daughter and I suppose to reply them but I am blogging here. It is me. And Now after thirty minutes I go for duty then when I come from duty I sleep directly and wake up tomorrow morning by the grace of God and also after waking up I use my mobile one hour later then I start blogging then when I talk to my family. I am the one responsible for myself so I am the one to act also so the act is to call family before ten mins to end the blog meaning at thirteen forty then now the time is twenty four I have more sixteen mins to blog. Ok this is enough for me to stay happy, express my feelings and remain positive.

There are several ways of expressing my feelings and recording it. This is generation of AI I understand but I want to start from where I left and I want to flow by the process. I know one day I start my own blog. I don’t know the one day but what i know is that one day is the day I am with me and I have clear vision of helping people problem and solving them. Till then I have no right to talk and complain. The very first person is me myself. I should be with myself then the day my mind and body work together nothing is impossible.Presently I am not using voice typing because first I create disturb and second I am not trying it lets see i use very soon. Now umm what is my topic yeah the topic is ready for duty and I am ready for duty yesterday off is my unconditional off whatever happen it have reason. I know myself well if i do lazy today then same tomorrow also. Thankyou so much for staying with me. Stay positive. Spread happiness and serve humanity. Laugh when I can. Thank you so much. Time thirteen thirty two.

Time is eleven thirteen. Good morning. I wake up at ten fifty late. I sleep with my uniform and i get with the same. My accomodation team are here for inspection. They turn the ligh on. They are three to four people. Thank you for them to waking me up. Today I am not following my routine. I wake up late. I am happy anyway. I am having lots of thought in my mind and I am not able to capture this all. It is normal because it cannot happen. This platform I am using or what I am doing is good for the presence of mind or concentrating in one thing. I am now typing and I am not able to think or remember what I am thinking. I am saying that I cannot able to capture my brain thought and thinking for that I need self talking and many other form. Why this is coming to me. I am early phase of my day. I am in thirty mins after waking up. I tell myself personal hour for this. Lots of thought aries here for me also still coming and because I am blogging I am not concentrating and focusing them. I want to just open camera and video myself and capture own but i am not doing so I fear to do. I fear to know myself well. Many alternatives and option I have I fear to act. The first time I am stucking and thinking in this moment.

Lets start this blog like this. The only thing I remember now is I went to washroom there many thought comes which come and go I just feel them. Neither I can recover them nor I have time to recall them or I am not doing so because I am not willing to do and If I do also what is the benefit of finding if I don’t act. In this morning the early hour my mind is so active and I am not utilizing it. The way of thinking is different and I am not feeling this and experiencing this type of experience before. Reasons are many and could be the real reason I cannot conclude. I don’t need to find the real reason. The reason may be I am continuosly typing before also. My finger are tired or I am not getting skill.

The moment when I take out mobile phone, charger and earphone.

No lets make this acting and happening. I will record this moment than to type. Recording where I cannot go live because I don’t have reason to go live. I fear I cannot give any meaning to my viewer, the solution to people. I fear myself and confidence less. Ok my some dream is to make facebook page naming the power of word where I simply uses word now It can be in different way. Lets see what could happen and going to be. The time eleven thirty three and I left it here without welcoming and saying thank you today I am not saying stay positive spread happiness and laugh when you can because it is not same I am thinking in my early morning. Today my blog is different and now it is realizing by myself now. Now my fingers are getting speed and I don’t have to think too much for typing. Ok Now I am in form

Now Lets welcome to my blog. I want to be in a flow and I am in my that flow now a continuous pressing keyboard. Less thinking just press what I am feeling and also focusing to press backspace as much low as I can but also when I thog[] thought to not pressing it the more I need to press it. Today I am confindencte to fimd myself in this morning yearh this is me and I am continuing it more and more and day ;bayday. I am happy.

actually thois should be my gratitude time Noramally when I wake yp I or yesterday i go to On what to dsay this is me what is me . I am actually goal less and aimless yeas Ia I am goal elss so ok now lets self talk with myself in facebook live but ia m not ready for it. Why Because this is the platform I am using to connecting me with myself. If I ;a make video or anything. I mean If I tpe this blog I can read when I am in my duty and connect me myself. So this journey is like first I focus that I am finding myself. Connecting me with myself but it wasnot. Actually truth is another what i am doing now is connecting my this reflecting hour to my time where I am bored and enjoying the best.

All of this this are from myhead disturbance.There are many thinigs in my head which ;I have to clear . The mor eI am typing is that I can get used to knowof myself. I can understand my selfe very welll why I am using this platform and where am iI going to use.

The only viewer of mine this blog is mine myself. I am sorry mentor actually the appreciation I am giving toyou is frommy thought good thought and I want ot o practise it more but today I am honest in this mornig thime i am not good enough to appreciate wyou well too. I appreciat yoy well becaue i have to appreciate you. Thank you so much mentor.

I am not ready to type the thankyou line becauseonce I tpe it i become the same.why this clashers came tomy head because yesterday I read my blog in my duty time and I spent more time. I feel heavier and lighter I don;t want to go there but reading myself is good. …………….. This is what I want connecting myself with mine and this topic also being vast. What is above …. The moment I close the eye and doing hyeeeee I don’t know english meaning of hyeee.

The time is eleven fifty. Then why you using english language may be it is because I am greedy to seek the attraction of people in future. Yes this is reason it is why I am wanting to make perfect. Trying to make best word.No no no and yess also but whythis in my head. The more practice the more perfect I become no perfert the more practice the more it become habitual . Habit equals to perfect no oryes the what and why there is pracise makes man perfect.

then the time eleven fifty four. I also feel literally negative of starting this journey a=nd I am challeging all the time. The good thing is I ma student and learnig is my process. Thank you time eleven fifty five.

the timeis twelve zero three.i habit is different when the topic is the fear of social media then first I like to describe the fear defination and the social media . The position can be anywhere first I can define the first one or the other one. But I am not defining them If I am writing content and essay in simple form I am doing this. But I am not doing this because this is also not what I want I am not writing nor defining. The conditin I am feeling is similar lik the fear of social media and I am not pretty suer it si fear of social media.but rightnow for present moment and thought I give this fear of social media. Why this arise I feel too small in typing and blogging I want to post and be live in social media but I cannot Because I fear social media. Yeah I feel fear is socialmedia and I literallyl fear it. When I got o social then I forget what I am going to do in socialmedia. What actually I do right now Is I wrote one name of specific social media then I realize not to be specific then I find that keyword by searchiny by using control and f for finding and I replace that word with social media. This is the use of thing. The knowledge I have I use in practical and the satisfaction met. And what is I am there is yeah when I go to socialmedia there I forget what I am actually there. All of this is just two sec literally. Opening phone then goto facebook and click post story. Now this is topic I write now in next. For now I go to washroom time twelve fifteen.

The time is twelve nineteen I come from washroom during this I have lotsof thought that comes and goes from my mind.

Now where I am previous. And from where I start I dont know If I want to start from where I left then I have to look previous line but I dont look previous line cause I don’t want to be distract and manipulate what type written and gone gone. I am this what I am is. And I am happy with this.

Literally yeah in that two sec in social media process I have lots of distraction and distract by them also when I open social media, before my presence of mind the social media speaks itself and it is so pretty that my brain feels good and listen so do my ear and then after that I lost my finger will scroll next. I don’t want this. I don’t want distraction. I am me now starting journey of learning from scratch.

The topic are huge why huge I make them huge why I cannot start some topic it because I have not right to talk to something if I don’t have solution for it, gut to implement that and experience by me. And again lots of thing.

In this learning journey I am with me and only with me and this is enough for me. For myself right now the most important person with whom I have to be is me myself.

All of this things what I am writing is all the things I have read somewhere, listen somewhere practise somewhere. The main and key thing is now I am visualizing it well. Now I give time to my mind actually. Thank you god for this moment to know myself. I amnot defining my self the way I want. Sometime I feel some and sometime some but what am I is.

Then right now present moment and the thought I am enjoying the process I want to know the process. This is also the line I am saying already. That I don’t want any title but I want to be in that process. To learn that things o this is what I am . No w I amgetting this. This journey is helping me well and I am learning what I am not learning well.

Now time is twelve thirtyfour.

I am lighter lighter now also much confidence and confindence. Now I can see the positivity of people. Now I am seeing throughly also the heavier part is that I am not taking with my family. The video of my father sent for me I fear to click and look. My wife is in hospital and unaware about the present situation. It makes me heavier but the thing is I am equally courage and confindence also now I am seeing the vision and the goal of my destination. Now tension are increasing though many other tension I throw so that I have space and courage to handle and put some.

The other heaviness is about my resignation.

I resign from my job already and I am serving notice period.My notice period is of sixty days and now more than thirty days already past. I am happy I am not searching another job.I am here blogging myself and enjoying. I enjoy blogging in my room and if I get time then I enjoy reading my own blog in duty time. If possible then I continue blogging there also but I don’t. I am not doing blogging in any influence. why I read my own blogg to know me myself. I put all the books aside I don’t for how long but I am not reading it too soon. The notebook I written all I kept I put aside.

The only thing I am near with me is this device.And all the distraction is here but I am focusing in my core. open phone open blog, click new type title and start typing from block session. At very first I enjoy ai reading my blog I feel good. Now I only type type type. I have headphone. I use nowdays only to talk home.

This is me how it ism me the timeis twelve fortyfive and before one I have to receive lunch if not then I already miss my break fast. so what.

Ok thankyou for staying with me till this long.Stay positive spread happiness and serve humanity. I want to come in next blog after one o clock but lets see I am calling home or no. If I dont call home then the next time is tomorrow only and what if tomorrow not come and same applies if tomorrow not come but the thing is it is true that tomorrow never comes. But what I am saying is that i am greatful to see this beautiful day and what if other beautiful day. hjmm=== let future be future live in the present .Discover my self. thank you time is twelve fifty.

The time is thirteen fifteen. I rec lunch as usual . while returning to room remember of gym I am not going today so at the same moment I went to gym with my food can start doing pullup with normal stretching and complete many ideas pops and gone. then before that I literally meet with friend whom I talk too much but I left to talk because I am late for lunch.I tell him to bring his mobile fromroom and make vlog and the moment is not ready he ask me to go and bring and I am not going and already I am late for lunch so I walk from there and as usual I see coordinator I say goodafternoon no reply or may I not listen him It is me and my responsible to call him loudly ok next time I do then again I met to the friend whom speaking is very necessary and shake hand and run from there and rec lunch now the time is that while returning If I return from same place then I sure talk with them so I use the other way where I click the gym memory and do gym also and after that while coming to room I thought why I need title and explain on that title my tilll now blog the title and content doesn’t match then what for it. The real thing I need is to type and the title is title less so I decide to write the date and day in my title and the front number represent day of blog and the number of the blog in that particular day. So I know it can be automated also that is why software, programming and automation are invented but also I am not using this and learning or applying this because I am not yet ready. for now I need typing and typing. If I think more and concluded this then I find what I need but I am using this and enjoying this. This is in my mind and if I courage to do it then I got new invention but I am not ready to do it and I am here where I deserve the most. but I am happy here. Lets see where ends.

Now what to write. yeah um In this journey I am learning myself.I haven’t use just even 1 percent of this platform too. Because I can do many thing here but I am not doing the other thing. so now accept it and move it. This is life and how life it is. I haven’t call to home now its thirteen thirtyone and lets call them. Thankyou for this beautiful moment. Yesterday from duty I am not bringing tissue and also not waste tissue now also same. But my instinct and habit one time I waste tissue because it habit and sometime some moment I feel bad why I post that story in but not worry what i post i post already now no worry this is life and journey I am learning. Thank you for staying with me. Stay positive.Spread happiness and serve humanity.time thirteen thirty five.

This is why the draft option people invented or made. I am in urgency and less time. it is thirteen forty one and Its time to go duty. before going I am talking to home and which home before that I need to connect vpn and before that i know I am not brushing my teeth and I am in same uniform from last duty. so what i do next nothing. the time is thirteen forty three I want to make blog of this brushing not the teetha] and the uniformbut i feel less important than to talk and call home then I am choosing whom I have to call then I am calling to my dad I open then there I see my daughter the second time and I am blogging this the time is fortyfive min and I am not stoping myself to express then i think to save it in draft but I dont think i am using draft option and make blog later or now I am doing right the moment.

The first time I see my daughter is when I call to my wife she show me. I am fear from this and I am running away from It but I cannot run further. Why am I running It is because my younger daughter look same to my bigger one and today while i am going to call my dad i see her nicely she is exactly the same. then what is odd. The odd is again I am not there right now. But for big daughter I am there with her.Now I cannot and the fear is I need to hold her in my hand but I am unable. I am unable because I am not acting. I am not doing anything that make me to hold her and or in coming days.

Ok then now don’t go to dark. taking deep breath. I smile one day I go ok but again when I go with her, she grew already big then. O what to do, nothing to do. Now my duty time. I am not arranging my bed the good thing is there is no much things so I can arrange shortly and the other is I have to leave from here to go in real duty and act accordingly also my duty or day go not well if i left the same. So i call to home which home. Lets call dad and if no rec then ok. Lets leave it well. and act accordinlgy. I am with me and myself just focusing on it. go for duty then come sleep and wakeup and act. and again if tomorrow is not my day and I didn;t see the light. then

ok lets hope and see. Thankyou for staying with me I am hurry thats why copy paste is important. I can copy frommy previous blog and paste it here butI am not doing so and it is me what is me real. thankyou stay positive, spread happiness and server humanity. Thank you. time thirteen fifty six.

the time is four fifty six. Now my blog starting time is four fifty six then why my blog title is different. It is because the time I look today is time four twenty and why it important is because I am not willing to look the time but I see it is four twenty unwillingly.

The title can be literallyl anything but also now there is some meaning in the title because I am use to write in the title and block session so my brain is also thinking the same and I think too much regarding the titile. My today blog tile can be anything like tI fint myself in mirrot or the friend I meet or the free food or the wake up before time anything is possible but why I choose the specific title is because it is the moment I dont want ot see the time annd the time appera infront of me .

first of all thankyou so much for this beautiful day. I can enjoy the oment and life. I am in my room literally enjoying the moment and typing. .

today I epress too much so there is no thing to type so here comes the importance of silence if I exptess too much then I dont have anything t expptess but also whatere is happening let it happen.

Now I feel sleepy but beforeI feel okay and energetic. i feel sleepy now because my mind know that I am sleeping less and how it know because of time and when it know it is known after I see the time whee I see the time in my bobile why I see I see is the reason but before that what if I didnot see the time. I have feel it literaly.

TodayI get up or my open . My eyes open so I feel relaxed and comfortablebut I dont know the time I didnot think too much I just think to wake up because I a feeling good then I go to washroombut before that I havent see the time in wath and I dont liketo see the time so I ut the watch in pocket and went to washroom. No actually I wear the watch but I havent see the time and it is easy for me because I am not habitual to see the time in watch and in mornig it is neasy me to not see the watch. The easy way to slip is to watch in mobilebut my phone is in my locker far from my bed and it is since last two o clock so I have watch in my hand bbut I didnot look the time so also I am feeling good and then I come to room I took spoon and then go for gym this is my routine or abit I am following I want to folow the hanit that I have because i dont want to distract by time so till now I dont know what is time then now I nly listen the music from other mobile at that time I am sinign that song but I dont rememer it nor i want to sing it literally tsong is also not inmy life I am thinking not to be distracted by song but that time i am singing that song and I went togym then I realized it is not open and then I realize it is early in the morning but also exactly I dont know what the time is . I already put my watch in my pocket so that I sont see the time and now I know it is not four of clock becaue if it is four then gm is open then I move around an I realize I wake up early but also my sleep id full becaue i wake up feeling reelaxed so I move and wakl along thingking then I see myself in mirror and I found mysef in mirror and I concentrated in mirror looking myself taling smiling and so many the moment is good at that time till now i see many people alreay I met many people also but from mirror my one frn call me and ask for food to join then I ask him do you want me to get join you inine real then hI join hin in dining the n then he share the ood he have and we are talking actually first he is talkng then also I start talking and expressing and then I go to ask food then it is not time so they tell me to wait for during this my frn and I am hving so much talin and eating and what I realize is that he is not using social media or posting pic from eigh years and i am the one for five yeras and the other coincendece are that he is the one tali not talking to wife for one month and I am two days and he is the one going for duty regulary for twentyone days and I am the one for seventeen days so I learned many thing from him and why he approach me is that he also suppose that he is vrazy or the only person to look at the mirror hiself but he see me looking at the mirror so he approach me then is so much fun talking and we laugh too much then another good thing happen another frn join with us and he alos enny us but before joining I tell him cleary thath we are two crazy here already now it will be three then also it become the same he was so surprised to listen and talk to us. beforethis I ask my frn tabout vloging then he have already lost of captured video but never posted then I am speechless and alos I want to make and capture this moment in video but I dont have mobie with me and my mobile is already in room so the only mobile there is with mey frn and he wis not doing it so the frn third noe also not have any and not done befor and I am wanting to start from the one whom i neer met so I approach im and want to make but he is mot ready then after moment he gave much great taling then I remove my wnat because i know many thing s fro him so now there is no point of making videa and starting vlog then at one moment I thought no it should start and I act i juct come to my room and grab my phone from locker I dont want to see my time in mobile so I cover the top part but I want to see battery percentage so when I cover hand and wand to see the batter ithe time is foru twnety and it si display in down side which I havn’t cover and now I know the time bnen whe n I go to down the frn was already gone and I never start vlog tillnow. then I thing I amthe blogger man I have to continue till I am enough to start it so tody it is not day but one day I stat vloging. and what vloging actaully is from ny understanding vlogging is video form what recently i am doing this much for today…….

Now the time is five twenty nine . I have many things to exptress and now I gound many food thins also I am tingk ing the way I anto before noe i am withme and muself. so for now when I am not logging I am with me and during bloggin also I am with men Now I am enjoing my and myself company. this is my learnign journey and now literaly me andm yself is feeling and missing my family and we both say that I have to talk to home and now I am callying then Ia responsible for myself now I am controlling my brain so I am caple for the good thing and handle everything. So stay ppositve. Spread happiness. Server humaniny . thankyou for staying with me and sorry for the rammear mistake and tping mistake . this is also having rason and thank you so much. I don;t know the time now the moment I konw the time is when I look to phone and I am not wanting that so t now the time is five thirty three.

The time is seven zero four. I am very happy but also I am accepting that I am anger now from this what I learn is I dont know why am I angry is because I dont know. The truth is I talked to my wife till one hour long I am very happy but also it concluded in anger. I am the responsible for this. I am the one who should responsible for it.

so what is anger I dont know but what I remember regarding this word is that in my home room I am having on my wall that anger is the punishment that we give for ourself for someone eles mistake and how am I forgetting this line. I am great I am with me and now I can remember the thing I actually have and I am great that I can control my mind and courage to talk with my family. it is good thing now I can go to home I am going to the wall of my room. It is because my wife is in my home. I can visualize myself there. so what I can give to the world or how can I help for anger is just the line is enough. I am feeling anger the first person i know should be I myself and the first person I control is me myself so when I am with me I can face the anger and control it then the anger is no more as anger it is normal. for now or moment I can say and give to world this musch. Now I am again back to blog. the time is seven twelve I wake up early in this morning and enjoying the moment .Now I can forget many things and forgetting also makes me happy. I and me myself doing great during this journey. Now I can think clearly and I am being with me myself. So now next topic is for housekeeping and me and myself know and believe we are doing so it is possible and right now it happens. the time is seven fourteen.