Time is eleven thirteen. Good morning. I wake up at ten fifty late. I sleep with my uniform and i get with the same. My accomodation team are here for inspection. They turn the ligh on. They are three to four people. Thank you for them to waking me up. Today I am not following my routine. I wake up late. I am happy anyway. I am having lots of thought in my mind and I am not able to capture this all. It is normal because it cannot happen. This platform I am using or what I am doing is good for the presence of mind or concentrating in one thing. I am now typing and I am not able to think or remember what I am thinking. I am saying that I cannot able to capture my brain thought and thinking for that I need self talking and many other form. Why this is coming to me. I am early phase of my day. I am in thirty mins after waking up. I tell myself personal hour for this. Lots of thought aries here for me also still coming and because I am blogging I am not concentrating and focusing them. I want to just open camera and video myself and capture own but i am not doing so I fear to do. I fear to know myself well. Many alternatives and option I have I fear to act. The first time I am stucking and thinking in this moment.
Lets start this blog like this. The only thing I remember now is I went to washroom there many thought comes which come and go I just feel them. Neither I can recover them nor I have time to recall them or I am not doing so because I am not willing to do and If I do also what is the benefit of finding if I don’t act. In this morning the early hour my mind is so active and I am not utilizing it. The way of thinking is different and I am not feeling this and experiencing this type of experience before. Reasons are many and could be the real reason I cannot conclude. I don’t need to find the real reason. The reason may be I am continuosly typing before also. My finger are tired or I am not getting skill.
The moment when I take out mobile phone, charger and earphone.
No lets make this acting and happening. I will record this moment than to type. Recording where I cannot go live because I don’t have reason to go live. I fear I cannot give any meaning to my viewer, the solution to people. I fear myself and confidence less. Ok my some dream is to make facebook page naming the power of word where I simply uses word now It can be in different way. Lets see what could happen and going to be. The time eleven thirty three and I left it here without welcoming and saying thank you today I am not saying stay positive spread happiness and laugh when you can because it is not same I am thinking in my early morning. Today my blog is different and now it is realizing by myself now. Now my fingers are getting speed and I don’t have to think too much for typing. Ok Now I am in form
Now Lets welcome to my blog. I want to be in a flow and I am in my that flow now a continuous pressing keyboard. Less thinking just press what I am feeling and also focusing to press backspace as much low as I can but also when I thog[] thought to not pressing it the more I need to press it. Today I am confindencte to fimd myself in this morning yearh this is me and I am continuing it more and more and day ;bayday. I am happy.
actually thois should be my gratitude time Noramally when I wake yp I or yesterday i go to On what to dsay this is me what is me . I am actually goal less and aimless yeas Ia I am goal elss so ok now lets self talk with myself in facebook live but ia m not ready for it. Why Because this is the platform I am using to connecting me with myself. If I ;a make video or anything. I mean If I tpe this blog I can read when I am in my duty and connect me myself. So this journey is like first I focus that I am finding myself. Connecting me with myself but it wasnot. Actually truth is another what i am doing now is connecting my this reflecting hour to my time where I am bored and enjoying the best.
All of this this are from myhead disturbance.There are many thinigs in my head which ;I have to clear . The mor eI am typing is that I can get used to knowof myself. I can understand my selfe very welll why I am using this platform and where am iI going to use.
The only viewer of mine this blog is mine myself. I am sorry mentor actually the appreciation I am giving toyou is frommy thought good thought and I want ot o practise it more but today I am honest in this mornig thime i am not good enough to appreciate wyou well too. I appreciat yoy well becaue i have to appreciate you. Thank you so much mentor.
I am not ready to type the thankyou line becauseonce I tpe it i become the same.why this clashers came tomy head because yesterday I read my blog in my duty time and I spent more time. I feel heavier and lighter I don;t want to go there but reading myself is good. …………….. This is what I want connecting myself with mine and this topic also being vast. What is above …. The moment I close the eye and doing hyeeeee I don’t know english meaning of hyeee.
The time is eleven fifty. Then why you using english language may be it is because I am greedy to seek the attraction of people in future. Yes this is reason it is why I am wanting to make perfect. Trying to make best word.No no no and yess also but whythis in my head. The more practice the more perfect I become no perfert the more practice the more it become habitual . Habit equals to perfect no oryes the what and why there is pracise makes man perfect.
then the time eleven fifty four. I also feel literally negative of starting this journey a=nd I am challeging all the time. The good thing is I ma student and learnig is my process. Thank you time eleven fifty five.
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