Perfectionism

The time is twenty one thirty. I am in my bed ready to sleep after having nice day. I already had my dinner. Before dinner I took shower and before that I prepared dinner too.

First and the foremost. I am very glad for the time and the day. My living God my father, my mother, father in law and mother in law. My completeness my wife. My supporter my brother. My life my kids. My mentor and all the teachers in my life. Friends indeed. Each and everyone able to feel me. Laugh when you can. Stay positive. Spread happiness and serve humanity.

I am human, learning through the mistake and habit is the everyday action shaping me. It is why I need to practice good habits more often. I have chosen this topic of perfectionism for today with lots of thought. My thought was unconditional and meaningless but also I couldn’t forget it. So its time to write little about the same.

I want to be perfect knowing perfectionism isn’t perfect and always focusing for the perfect. It comes from my habitual learning habit in my student life. In reality I am away from the habit of my student. Lots of deviation and can be stated as diversion too. Perfectionism is theory. Knowing it never happens till I apply. I could apply till I try. For trying I must act.

It was never the same when I assumed, visualize before and before I never visualize sitting idle and deeply like this.

The time is twenty one forty four. Typing continuosly, listening music in YouTube. Gadget same. Wireless keyboard with headset, stand and portable lap desk. Data internet.

The view I have for perfectionism and how I act determines me consistently. Some times it refers to procrastination and some times proactive Ness. Nevertheless its positive and negative. It is why I prefer and act positiveness though it is just one step or neck to neck with negativeness too.

Along with the perfectionism there are topic like the aim and the goal. Me like a ship without ladder. I am me myself, always protecting myself and fooling ownself that aimless is also an aim for the happiness.

Another it leads with my discipline. Self-discipline. How I think and react. The proudness and the ego. Somewhere I down from the range and somewhere more up. Sometimes vice versa.

Today right now I feel good writing this, before some where at my time I felt good visualizing the same and some where just remembering the thought.

The time is twenty one fifty three. I used to sleep at twenty to twenty one o’ clock. Today is different.

Where am I and How am I? Too much happy question for myself that keeps me smile. Smile is the word for the world. The same time I smile with its word. It is my education that I can read smile, remember it. This is the same my parents do efforts for my education.

Little negative, for only this my parents sacrifice all the things for me and my education and so do I am doing for my kids??? Huge for now but also interesting for thinking. Again the same happiness emerges. Some happiness is for my weakness that I cannot do the same that my parents did. Some happiness that I have hope for doing it. What lacking is that I am hoping for myself and this hope never succeed till I act and I never act till the moment I forget and wake up from the happy moment I am having because of my parents did for me.

It is where I feel ok and satisfied with the line that (Kuro ra kulo jata lage tetai janxa ).

Now the time is twenty two zero two. Now I am exiting. I have to brush my teeth and sleep. Results may differ obviously though my efforts are the same.

May not be the same. If my efforts remain same then the outcome also appears the same. But I may do different for different result and it continues till I am not focused and stick to the same.

I stick to the same equals for the perfectionism. To avoid perfectionism I divert and may becomes procrastinator and little towards perfectionism and less little from procrastinator may be good equals ship without radar, keeping all these aside reflects careless equivalent to less self discipline.

Shorting all the things and closing. Though I don’t have anything in conclusion. I don’t have to conclude too. But also for fooling myself and self lie is that till the moment I am with my consciousness typing the word. This time I can invest to more good else I can waste. The truth I invest here. This steps and work may aid me. Thank you.

Life is itself happy and joy. Have the moment to enjoy and feel joy. Thank you the time is twenty two thirteen.