I am problem myself.

The time is seventeen forty five. I am very happy and glad to see this another beautiful and wonderful day.

My living God my father and my mother, my father in law and mother in law. My completeness my wife. My supporter my brother. My life my kids. My mentor and all the teachers in my life. My friends indeed. My relatives , friends and future friends. Each and everyone who can feel me. Laugh when you can. Stay positive. Spread happiness and serve humanity.

I am problem myself and I am glad. This is my acceptance that I am problem myself and it is not new things for me. This is me why and how it is me. I am accepting myself as a problem because I know I create problems, I focus problem and I see the problems. Ok for this is ok then what I do with the problems is not ok.

Why this topic now here. Lets find or dig into deep. Now I am in my room. Before this, I am problem because it is ok and now I don’t want OK, so it is myself having curiosity to create problem. Maybe I am having guts to face problem or I am giving trouble to myself or I know that problem is opportunity. Yeah it may be. Then I am seeing my future or I am feeling the future. Exactly not clear but full of problem and this is not problem at all. I know where there is no obstacle that way is less interesting.

So why am I doing this much drama. Today I met with my supervisor and HR too. Everything is OK and rather than Ok it is very much good. But I am thinking other and what is other. The other is other which I am not thinking. Then now. Actually talking to my new company it is very good and everything is very good like before also. Everything has pros and cons too it depends on me where to focus and where not. Just leave this topic here.

I am having circle of Life. I am enjoying this job very much. I cannot enjoy this job. I am not making the habitual of this job. This job is like summarized form of my life, concluding the circle of life. I am not involving in small things so that I can think and act in big things. And what is small and big thing.

I am getting offer letter tomorrow which I want to postpone and this offer letter is the thing I am wanting the most. I want to postpone so that I get time for another interview and I want to sign so that I cannot leave this company. Lets see where I ends. I am where because I don’t have next destination to go and I don’t have next destination because I am here. Why am I using this because and explaining to whom. At least it is ok to use why and its time to use other WH questions and now I am getting some answer of my question. I asked myself sometime and after being silent and feeling and using the time I am getting. I am understanding and feeling myself. I am with myself. Over confidence and excitement or overwhelming is also not good. I can understand this.

The time is eighteen zero seven. I am in my own bed. Ready to go bath. Now I am busy in my blog forgetting to bath. Actually my bathroom is occupied before and now I am not checking.

So now who am I and how far did I came. The answer is I am nothing. I am learning. I am happy.

The known thing is that I am having more responsibilities than previous. It is not new for me and I cannot say this because I know everything is also not good. I am learning.

Today I miss my transport the earlier one and went to later one. The defect and problem one is for me. This is me. I am the one wanting it. Why me or Try me. So today I talk with my Supervisor too and HR too and both positive. I am waiting next interview with no guarantee of success rate but seeming positive and lots of hope. Present is my reality and future is my hope. I cannot wait. I am waiting. I know the value of time and waiting with nothing. I cannot leave this for happening too and If happening happen then I tell this is happening. It is just like where we take my mind and focus. I am happy with this. This is my life and it is present. I want ups and down. I am responsible for every happening. Now I remember that in my life ups and down I am not understanding but left and right is sure and ofcourse. My life is facing left and right.

Now some things are constant and some are variable. My constants I have to accept it and variables too. So my constants are sleep. I have to sleep and normal sleep is eight hours who tells and why but it is the thing I am following before but sleep is being expensive for me. It means my life is ups and down too. I am the same who fight for my own life for disturbing my sleep and here is me. So because is the thing I am practising till my childhood. Why makes me more understanding. And how I say why is also equally important or just saying how is also good. So thats it or more I am going.

Now the time is eighteen twenty three. I am having fear that I cannot give my time to my child and it is ok because I am not giving. In absence of my time what am I giving equals to emptiness. Thinking positive I am alive. Why am I alive since I am breathing and I am thinking.

Now here comes the call from where it should not be but this is reality and just signing out.

The time is eighteen twenty seven. Laugh when you can. Stay positive. Spread happiness and serve humanity. Thank you.